>> Monday, December 5, 2011
I finally got the results back from my cycle day 3 blood work, taken a couple of weeks ago. I called and spoke to the office nurse, which I'm not too thrilled about. I understand that we haven't started an official cycle with them yet, but the nurse did a poor job of selling me on our next step and explaining the results. I have it on my list to call back and speak with our RE for a better understanding.
I've also been out of the RE lingo loop for a few years now, so I'm not fresh as to what these acronyms or numbers really mean - nor have I had the time to really look them up and over analyze everything.
Ovarian reserve test: scored a 16, which indicates they would be able to retrieve 5 eggs through IVF. The nurse said this is a "good" score.
I asked her about PCOS, since both the RE and ultrasound tech said that I had a text book PCOS ultrasound. She said that these results were not indicative of that and our next step would have to be a HSG test before we could cycle.
As for now, my thoughts and feelings are strongly leaning towards trying on our own for a few more months and re-visiting with the RE if we're not successful. Knowing that my ovarian reserve score was good lifted a HUGE weight off my shoulders. And while I want another child and for Jackson to have a little brother (or sister), I don't feel like I'm fighting against time or my biological clock. Don't get me wrong, it's ticking, but I feel more in control of it's pace now.
I know this may sound crazy, but I'm suddenly at peace with giving it more time and not rushing into injecting myself full of hormones. Something has clicked for me lately and I know that God has a bigger plan. I am totally putting this in his hands and know that everything happens for a reason.
I may need to come back to this post a time or two, but right now I'm letting go and letting God - and I mean it this time:)